Friday, August 27, 2004
The day my life was crushed...

Today, Life struck me down. Reality is harsh.
I have to face the facts. I will never pass any tests. Never.
Never will you see my PPR without any F9s.

Why should i try so hard?
When in the end, nothing good ever comes out of it?
Why should I bother? In the end it comes to nothing at all.
Maybe I should just give up. Nothing good ever happens
It's for the better if i just give up. My life has no meaning
Life is so unexpected, so frail.
With just one slash on the wrist
Life ends...If life is so frail, why do we continue to live?

I should give up on life. I'm sure no one would notice tht i died anyway.
Im not like those really popular people or intelligent pple whom everyone knows, im just ordinary. An ordinary human being, who's sole purpose of youth is to toll away hours and hours studying. Many are subjected to this, but yet they succeed. You only see the success stories, the ones that became President Scholars, the ones who had made it.

But how about those that don't? Do pple care? Why should they? It does not concern them, it's not them who are suffering... So why should they bother?

Maybe I should adopt the same attitude these pple have and just not care. I shouldn't care abt life. Maybe, one day it will be my turn.

My turn when everyone sees me on the papers. No, not because i made it. Not because I did something extraordinary but because i died. Don't bother looking in the obituary, cos u won't see me there. Look in the first few pages of the newspaper and you'll see me. Dead after jumping off a building.

If I join the spirits of this earth, you can be sure I won't harm you. Maybe I might visit.

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 BuStEd!!!4:03 PM

---James---