Sunday, August 29, 2004
Watched "13 going on 30" yesterday night and it kinda got me thinking about lots of stuff. We are always wanting to grow up, to be grown up, just like our parents tht we fail to understand the joys of being a kid. Everyone has changed so much, it's so weird.

Time has flown by so fast... one minute, you are a kid of 5 with no worries and suddenly *BAM!* you soon realise tht "hey! im now 15". Oh sure, there are lots of advantages in growing up, u mature and u learn more and more abt life, but now thinking about it, do you really want to grow up? is growing up good? Is being mature good? I mean, if being mature means being unable to do the stuff you liked to do when you were younger, than why mature at all?

Time really flies by so fast, tht i dun even noe whether the things tht happened to me really happened at all and whether i had experienced them at all. It's all now a foggy memory, a distant image locked up at the back of my head. One minute, its monday and next thing you know when you look at the date again, it's Thursday. What happened to all the days in between? Where did they all disappear to? Why did they have to go so fast? You can never get them back again... its impossible...

Ever wondered what happened to you the moment you passed your PSLE? I did, and i realised tht it was almost as if the moment I had passed PSLE, my primary school days seemed to have faded and suddenly, Time seemed to accelerate and suddenly you are in secondary school, starting out as a secondary student.

Now, as a sec3 student, i think back and ask myself, what really happened to my sec1&2 years? Where did they go? I can't remember anymore. What happened to them??

Maybe that's the reason why pple always find my behavious like a child, maybe I just.. don't want to let go of my childhood.
Being a child was really the best years of my life, i don't believe in the phrase my mom told me when i entered secondary life. "The secondary years are the best years of your life". No mom, you are wrong. My childhood were the best years of my life!

How can i get them back? I can hardly recall many of the things i did during those years of my life.

It seems all so distant... was that really me who had gone through all those fun times? I don't know anymore... I don't know what to know anymore. I'm not a girl, not yet a woman... I just want to relive my childhood and stay like that permanently. Is that so much to ask for?

The EYE visits in 36 days
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 BuStEd!!!12:16 PM

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